Alpha Dom and His Human Surrogate by Caroline Above Story

Chapter 138 – Ella Shifts

Sinclair

I don’t remember much about my own experience shifting for the first time. I remember the blinding

pain, the torment of having every bone in my body broken, every muscle torn to perform the strange

alchemy of reshaping my into a wolf. I remember it feeling as though it lasted forever, the certainty that

it would never end… that I was surely dying. I didn’t understand how anyone could survive such

torment, but my Father was beside me every step of the way, holding me, comforting me and promising

that it would be alright. I recall the rumble of his steady, rea*suring voice more than anything else, but I

never imagined how hard it must have been for him to watch me suffer thus.

Now I understand only too well. It’s worse with Ella, because all her senses are coming in at once – the

entire world suddenly becoming to sharp, too bright, too loud. And her agony is deeper, because in

becoming her wolf she’s also losing our baby, the baby she waited and longed for over so many years.

I’m devastated to know our son won’t survive, and I can feel his immense stress through our bond as

Ella’s wolf emerges, but the worst part of all this is knowing I can’t fix it. I can’t protect either of them

from the brutality of nature.

I would gladly take on Ella’s pain myself. I would gladly suffer so that she doesn’t have to… but I can’t, I

can only be there for her and try to ease her distress. When the helicopter lands on the roof of the

mansion, I carry Ella down to my room, struggling to hold onto her as her small form jerks and spasms

with more strength than she would ever be able to manage normally. She’s still shivering with cold, and

though her wolf is waking up, I’m worried that it may not be fast enough to save her fingers and toes.

“Look baby, look – it’s your nest.” I tell her, unwrapping her from my coat to deposit her on the bed.

Ella is still in the beginning stages of her shift, still lucid enough to know where she is and what’s

happening. It won’t stay that way, of course. In a few hours she’ll be so consumed by pain that she

won’t know her own name anymore. She peeks through the darkened room, taking in her surroundings.

With a pitiful moan, she weakly crawls deeper into the pillowy haven, both relieved to be in her safe

haven and heartbroken to know she won’t need a nest much longer. I quickly bury her trembling form in

blankets, and drop a kiss to her tear-stained cheek, promising to return shortly.

I leave her only long enough to fill the bath with warm water, trying not to think about how different this

might have turned out if I hadn’t waited so long to go in after her. I’d been trying to respect her wishes,

to make her escape as safe as possible. Instead she ended up alone and helpless on the frozen

mountain.

The sounds of Ella’s inconsolable weeping and whimpers of pain provide a tortuous soundtrack to my

internal diatribe, and I return to the bedroom to find her writhing in discomfort under the blankets. When

I try to lift her she resists, “N-no.” She cries, shoving my hands away. “I w-want to stay. If I h-have to l-

lose him, it sh-should be here.”

“I’ll bring you back.” I vow, realizing what a mistake it was to offer her this comfort and then try to take it

away – even if it is only temporary. “We have to get you warm first, sweetheart.”

But Ella won’t have it. She fights me tooth and nail as I forcibly remove her from the bed, as vicious as

a tiny hellcat despite her exhaustion and depleted state. It breaks my heart to be so ruthless with her,

but I know it’s for her own good. I can’t get her to be still long enough to undress her so I tear her

clothes away and drag her into the bath. She goes in with a great splash, then whines as the warm

water meets her numb extremities, no doubt sending pins and needles through her limbs.

Ella immediately tries to escape the tub, and I hold her down, wishing there was any other way. I’ve

called for the doctor, but until her shift is over, administering any kind of care to her is going to be

harrowing. Ella lashes at me the only way she can, telling me she hates me, that I’m a monster and

she’ll never forgive me for this. I know she’s not herself, but I’d be lying if I said these words didn’t hurt,

digging into my already aching heart like so many knives.

I can’t even purr for her, because the noise alone will make her pain that much worse. The sounds and

chaotic scents of the city have already amplified the pain she was feeling in the forest, and I’m trying

my best not to add to her plight. I wish I could get some food into her to help provide her energy for

what is yet to come, but I know it will be impossible. It’s probably for the best anyway, since her taste

buds will be just as over-sensitive as everything else.

Suddenly Ella’s back bows violently as a horrible crack fills the air, and I know we’re out of time. She

howls with pain as she enters the second stage of her shift, and my wolf whines helplessly, rabid with

the need to ease her torment. I pull her from the bath and return her to the nest, letting her feel my

nearness and praying this will comfort her. Ella’s shouts of anger transform into wails and begging for

me to make it stop. I can only hold and pet her, whispering sweet nothings and reminders that it’s only

temporary. “I know, baby. I know it hurts. I promise it will be over soon.”

At some point, Ella turns her eyes to me, her pupils dilated so wide with pain that her irises are nothing

more than a glowing gold ring around pitch black pools. “I don’t want to be a wolf anymore.” She

whimpers, her fingers digging into my skin with incredible force. “Just make it stop.”

“I would if I could, little one.” I answer miserably. “I’m so sorry.”

She turns her head away from me and seizes up as all her fingers break at once, her mouth opening in

a silent wail, beyond the ability of making a sound. “Shh,” I croon uselessly, “Shh, I know.”

By the third hour of the shift, Ella’s begging has ceased. Instead the pain wracks her body with vicious

sounds of breaking bones and rending flesh, contorting her into unnatural shapes as she wavers in and

out of consciousness, screaming herself hoarse when she’s awake and falling limp when the darkness

finally takes her again.

My father enters after one such episode, finding me cradling her sleeping, broken body. I rock her and

mutter in her ear, hoping she’ll be able to hear me somewhere deep down. “I love you, Ella. You are

loved, so so loved.”

“You need to take a break, Dominic.” My father encourages gently, rolling close enough to place a firm

hand on my shoulder.

“No – I can’t leave her.” I insist stubbornly, my wolf snarling at the very suggestion.

“Will you at least eat if I bring you something?” He requests, using his sternest “Dad” voice. “You’re

coming off of a battle, a kidnapping, and a rescue operation on top of everything else.” When I still don’t

respond, my attention laser focused on my mate, he adds. “You’ve got to keep your strength up if you

want to help Ella.”

This finally makes me agree, and when he brings me a heaping plate of food a little while later I scarf it

down so quickly I’m worried I’ve made myself sick. I didn’t realize how ravenous I was until the meal

was in front of me, and I immediately feel revived – physically if not emotionally.

The food gives me the endurance I need to support Ella through the rest of her shift,

When it’s over and Ella is finally still – a pint-sized rose gold wolf curled in the wreckage of her nest,

pa*sed out from sheer exhaustion – I stumble out of the room and into my father’s arms. I collapse

against him, crying harder than I can remember doing since my mother died. He purrs and consoles

me the way he did when I was a pup, and I can only blubber my thanks to him – not only for this

comfort, but for his own suffering helping me through this process when I was a boy. Ella might be my

mate rather than my child, but I understand what it means now to guide someone through their first

shift.

In return, Dad a*sures me it won’t be this bad when I finally become a father. “Today you did something

no parent has ever had to endure.” He shares, rubbing my back. “This was so much more than just a

first shift, and I’ve never been prouder of you, son.” This only makes me weep harder, and he clucks in

sympathy. “Go be with your mate, Dominic. You need the rest every bit as much as she does.”

Cried out, emotionally and physically spent, I do as I’m told. Returning to the bedroom, I strip of my

clothes and shift into my wolf, before jumping onto the bed and curling my big body around Ella’s. The

moment I close my eyes, I’m asleep.