CEO He : Please Don't Love Me

Inside the hospital room with white-colored painted walls, only a continuous 'beep' sound of the ECG machine could be heard.

Other than that, everything was silent.

On the hospital bed lay a middle-aged woman with her eyes closed.

Tian Yuan looked at the woman with his eyes wide open with shock. It took him a long time to move his eyes away from the bed and turn his head to look at Liu Ji Fan.

When he finally looked at the man standing beside him, Tian Yuan's hands, lips …his whole body trembled to see his face.

Liu Ji Fan's eyes were red…filled with unshed tears.

Tian Yuan didn't know whether he was angry at him or something else but he could see Liu Ji Fan's clenched jaw and fists.

"How…how did ... you…" find out?

He had wanted to say but couldn't complete his words.

Tian Yuan licked his trembling lips unable to comprehend what he should say in such a situation.

He actually didn't know why he was feeling so emotional, nervous, angry, and wronged.

He suddenly wanted to cry after finding out that Liu Ji Fan knew everything that happened a few years ago.

Because he should have not.

Because if he did, then Tian Yuan knew that he would not be able to break away from this relationship ever …because Liu Ji Fan will not let him and he was already very tired of everything.

He was not left with any strength to put any effort into this relationship. 

He remained silent as Liu Ji Fan suddenly held his hand and dragged him out of the hospital room. They stopped just outside the room.

There was no one else on the floor they were on currently except them.

Liu Ji Fan looked at the thin man standing in front of him and suppressed the emotions rising inside his heart with very difficulty. 

"How did…this happen?"

Liu Ji Fan asked as he looked at the woman lying on the bed from the window of the room. 

The question seemed to have poured a bucket of cold ice water on Tian Yuan's head and he swiftly raised his head to look at Liu Ji Fan.

So Liu Ji Fan doesn't know everything.

Liu Ji Fan's jaw clenched when he didn't hear anything from Tian Yuan. He stepped forward and grabbed Tian Yuan's shoulders as he said     

"Tian Yuan, please tell me why is auntie like this?"

As he asked this, Liu Ji Fan could not stop himself from remembering the image of a woman with a soft smile on her lips who would urge him to eat more every time he went to Tian Yuan's house.

Tian Yuan's mother was a very gentle and soft-hearted woman. Her son, Tian Yuan was a very silent boy and didn't have many friends.

So when one day, Liu Ji Fan suddenly showed up with Tian Yuan, she and Tian Yuan's father welcomed him with a bright smile and open arms. 

Tian Yuan's family was different. Liu Ji Fan had thought when he had gone to his house.

It was only then he came to know what a real family was like.

In a family, everyone cared for each other… and this care was never for any selfish reasons. It was selfless and unconditional. 

Liu Ji Fan knew all this when Tian Yuan's mother had specially requested him to continue being friends with him. She wanted her son to have friends and she liked Liu Ji Fan's attitude for that.

The woman however didn't know that she never needed to make Liu Ji Fan promise her any such thing.

How could he leave Tian Yuan?

The man had entered his heart, made him crazy like no one else, made him feel so many different emotions

After his father's death, Liu Ji Fan had laughed so openly for the first time when he had met Tian Yuan. After that, he found himself more and more cheerful around him.

Tian Yuan made his life peaceful and gave him so many reasons to live.

…how could he let go of such a precious person in his life?       

So he had promised Tian Yuan's mother firmly that he would never leave Tian Yuan.

But never had he thought that it would be Tian Yuan who would leave him suddenly.

"Tian Yuan…baby…please tell me."

Liu Ji Fan whispered with closed eyes and leaned his forehead against Tian Yuan's forehead.

Tian Yuan was still dazed and confused by everything. So when Liu Ji Fan asked him something, he replied without thinking much

"Six years ago … accident … Dad left … Mom was shocked … and then collapsed suddenly."

Tian Yuan seemed to be very lost as he murmured these words.

Liu Ji Fan frowned when he heard him talking like this. He opened his eyes and his frown deepened seeing the lost look in Tian Yuan's eyes.

"Dad..mom…"

Tian Yuan whispered and suddenly started to breathe very sharply.

A tear fell out from the corner of his eye which Liu Ji Fan hurriedly caught and cupped his cheek.

"Tian Yuan…"

Liu Ji Fan whispered.

However, Tian Yuan didn't seem to hear him at all.

Indeed, Tian Yuan could not hear Liu Ji Fan at all.

In front of his eyes flashed the scene of his father's dead body... his mother's eyes filled with pain and then scene of her suddenly collapsing on the floor…and then he was alone.

His hand suddenly rose to clutch his heart.

That time, he was so alone…so alone that he missed Ji Fan every day. He wanted Ji Fan to hug him and tell him that everything would be alright…that his mother would wake up one day, that his father would also come back to him, that he was not alone.

He wanted him very much.

But every time, a merciless voice would ring in his ears and stop him

'You do not deserve him.'

Even at this moment, he could hear that voice telling him the same words. But amidst these words, he could also hear the faint and very familiar voice. 

"Tian Yuan…look at me."

It was very faint but Tian Yuan wanted to continue hearing it. It gave his heart a different kind of peace. It didn't make him feel lonely. 

However, he suddenly felt very dizzy. The voice became very faint with every passing second.

'Was he undeserving of this little bit of peace also?'

Tian Yuan suddenly thought inside his heart …and his eyes closed on his own accord.

And then he collapsed on the floor in Liu Ji Fan's arms who was shouting for doctors.