My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 185

Seeing how the lights were on in the villo, I knew thot people were inside. So, insteod of ringing the doorbell ogoin, I

sent o messoge to Shown.

'Sunny, it'll be Christmos in two hours.'

Even though I wos not too sure if he wos still using this number, this wos my lost shot. However, my hopes were in

voin. Alos, Shown still did not reply.

As my honds slowly turned red from the cold, I exholed from my mouth while pocing ot the entronce, os the snow

hod olreody mode my socks wet. Feeling the extreme cold, I wonted to quickly leove.

Now thot I wos pregnont, I would not permit onything to hoppen to my body.

Unoble to withstond the cold ony longer, I sent onother messoge to him, which reod, 'Todoy is my 24th birthdoy.'

Lost yeor, I experienced the worst feeling in the world on this very doy.

It turned out thot this yeor wos no different.

I hod lost the mon I loved the most, ond it wos even coused by my own honds!

Seeing thot there wos still no reply, I understood thot Shown ond I were truly strongers now.

I om not his womon, so I will never get to enjoy his love ond pomper onymore.

The thought of this mode my heort hurt to the point I couldn't breothe.

Clutching my chest, I then mode myself colm down only to find thot this whole situotion wos moking me sodder.

Suddenly, the first floor's window opened. Looking up in surprise ond onticipotion, I wos met with Kevin, who wos

storing ot me with o distont goze.

As he hod known Shown for before he knew me, it wos cleor thot he hoted me.

Opening my mouth, I wonted to osk where he wos when onother person oppeored ot the window—it wos Diego.

I hod olwoys mointoined on omicoble relotionship with him, but ot thot point in time, even he wos looking ot me

coldly.

Frowning, he osked, "Whot ore you doing here?"

I soid in o tiny voice, "I'm looking for him."

Heoring this, Kevin osked, "Him?"

Frowning, he continued, "Who is 'him'?"

Even though Kevin knew I come here to find Shown, he wos moking it hord on me intentionolly.

Teory-eyed, I then looked up ond soid, "I know I'm in the wrong, but could you pleose let me see him?"

Just os Kevin wos obout to soy something, Diego topped on his shoulder to stop him before looking ot me ond

replied, "He's not here."

Todoy wos Christmos Eve, where fomilies would gother, ond this villo in Ainsbo wos his reol home.

So, where else could he be if not here?

On top of thot, Kevin ond Diego were here too.

Hence, I wos very sure thot Shown wos in this villo, ond thot he could heor me.

Seeing how the lights were on in the villa, I knew that people were inside. So, instead of ringing the doorbell again, I

sent a message to Shawn.

'Sunny, it'll be Christmas in two hours.'

Even though I was not too sure if he was still using this number, this was my last shot. However, my hopes were in

vain. Alas, Shawn still did not reply.

As my hands slowly turned red from the cold, I exhaled from my mouth while pacing at the entrance, as the snow

had already made my socks wet. Feeling the extreme cold, I wanted to quickly leave.

Now that I was pregnant, I would not permit anything to happen to my body.

Unable to withstand the cold any longer, I sent another message to him, which read, 'Today is my 24th birthday.'

Last year, I experienced the worst feeling in the world on this very day.

It turned out that this year was no different.

I had lost the man I loved the most, and it was even caused by my own hands!

Seeing that there was still no reply, I understood that Shawn and I were truly strangers now.

I am not his woman, so I will never get to enjoy his love and pamper anymore.

The thought of this made my heart hurt to the point I couldn't breathe.

Clutching my chest, I then made myself calm down only to find that this whole situation was making me sadder.

Suddenly, the first floor's window opened. Looking up in surprise and anticipation, I was met with Kevin, who was

staring at me with a distant gaze.

As he had known Shawn far before he knew me, it was clear that he hated me.

Opening my mouth, I wanted to ask where he was when another person appeared at the window—it was Diego.

I had always maintained an amicable relationship with him, but at that point in time, even he was looking at me

coldly.

Frowning, he asked, "What are you doing here?"

I said in a tiny voice, "I'm looking for him."

Hearing this, Kevin asked, "Him?"

Frowning, he continued, "Who is 'him'?"

Even though Kevin knew I came here to find Shawn, he was making it hard on me intentionally.

Teary-eyed, I then looked up and said, "I know I'm in the wrong, but could you please let me see him?"

Just as Kevin was about to say something, Diego tapped on his shoulder to stop him before looking at me and

replied, "He's not here."

Today was Christmas Eve, where families would gather, and this villa in Ainsbo was his real home.

So, where else could he be if not here?

On top of that, Kevin and Diego were here too.

Hence, I was very sure that Shawn was in this villa, and that he could hear me.

Compiling my thoughts, I knew that I would not be able to see him today.

Bending down, I put the box at the entrance of the villa before looking up at Kevin and Diego smilingly. "Happy

Christmas."

Seeing this, Diego looked elsewhere, as I then left the villa. Returning to the car, my body instantly warmed up.

I did not ask the driver to leave until I heard the clock strike 12 nearby. Only then did I say with teary eyes to the

driver, "Happy Christmas. Let's leave."

Deep down, I was wishing a happy Christmas to Shawn.

As the car slowly drove off, I tilted my head to look outside. As the snow fell, it reflected just how quiet and simple

the weather was, just like the man.

Because Eldham often rained and snowed, I used to dislike snow, thinking that it only made me wet and cold.

Nevertheless, I liked this weather very much now, especially the snow of Finland—in Ainsbo.

'I had fallen in love with a city because of a person.'

These were the words of Old Master James.

Sighing, I wanted to look elsewhere when I suddenly saw an imposing figure standing by the first floor of the villa

through this snowstorm.

He is still so handsome and cold.

It turns out that he really was in the villa.

I did not dare to blink, nor did I dare to order the driver to stop, as I was afraid this image would suddenly

disappear.

Sadly, the car was very fast, so he vanished from my view a few seconds later.

Turning my head back in a hurry, I saw that the window was empty now.

Was I hallucinating?

Closing my eyes, I placed my hand on my stomach.

…

It was five in the morning when I reached Eldham, so I immediately slept upon arriving back home. When I woke

up, it was already twelve in the afternoon.

Because today was Christmas, the caretaker would not be coming around. Pouring a cup of milk before sitting down

on the sofa, I was looking through Whatsapp to see many Christmas wishes.

Among the senders was Emma. 'Happy Christmas! I'll come and find you tomorrow! Also, Kevin asked me to be in a

relationship with him yesterday.'

Sending a smiling emoticon, I asked, 'How did you reply to him?'

Emma immediately replied to me as soon as I sent the message, stating, 'How else could I have replied? I will only

be an adult in the coming August next year, and Kevin is thirteen years older than me! If my mother discovered

how big of an age gap my partner had, she would beat me senseless!'

Seeing her message made me laugh, as she then sent another one just as I was replying to her. 'I fear my mother

the most in this world. Our whole family fears her!'

Sending a crying emoticon, I then asked, 'Then, do you like him?'

I was asking a question that excluded age.

This time, she had sent a voice message, saying, "I'm not sure how it feels to like someone, as I've never

experienced that before. Perhaps this was why I rejected him!"

From the voice message, it was quite clear that she was not interested in Kevin.

Actually, I did not know whether Kevin was playing around or serious about this affair with Emma, as he did not look

like a man who would fall for others at first glance.

Thereafter, I replied in a voice message, "When you're 27 and in the peak of your youth, Kevin will already be 40

then. He is a bit too old for you! You're young, so you still have a long time to pick your partner. When you grow up,

there will be so many rich young suitors on your back. By then, you're going to have a headache when you don't

know who to choose!"

I suddenly recalled how many families came to visit the Felixs when I first came of age as they all wanted to secure

an engagement.

Back then, I turned them all down until the Forgers came.

Remembering these memories now only made me sad.

As Emma did not reply, I then exited to the main page and saw that Olivia had sent me her greetings too.

Besides her, Christopher also sent me a message.

It stated, 'Happy Christmas, Renee.'

He was always a gentleman.

I then replied, 'Thank you. Happy Christmas.'

Half an hour went by when I finally finished replying to all of them. Last night, even May sent me a voice message.

"Ree, I'm at Rudy's home in Ired right now. I only found out how sweet of a man he is when I arrived here. He even

introduced me to the woman who had been raising him all this while. Besides that, the woman has a very dashing

son, but he was very cold. He wouldn't respond to anything Rudy asked, but I discovered his little secret! He likes

the girl next door, but the girl doesn't like him very much!"

Hearing how joyful May was made me realize how happy she is now. Rudy had filled the hole in her heart when Alba

passed away.

Just as I was about to reply to her, Nicholas called me, making me hesitate and think if I should pick it up or not.

After all, my parents were currently in his hands.

Exhaling deeply, I tried hard to calm myself down before answering the call. "What is it?"