My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 626 Always Lost in Thoughts

I promised Colin I would spare K, but under that premise, I must ask for Shawn's opinion and act wisely to avoid any

mishap. It was mainly because Shawn was more thoughtful than me, and following his advice would be less

stressful for me.

Shawn was willing to listen to my opinion since I took the initiative to ask about this matter. He asked softly, "What

do you have in mind?"

I lowered my head and affectionately nuzzled his tall nose with my own. Then, I smiled and asked, "Did K hurt you?"

Shawn shook his head and said, "He is a quiet boy. Besides helping me with my bandage, he always plays the violin

by the lake outside the cabin. At night, he only sleeps in the corridor outside the cabin. We have never

communicated."

I asked in shock, "He has never spoken to you?"

Shawn said calmly, "No."

The shock was written all over my face. "Won't you be itching to ask him where you are? It's hard to believe you

two have been together for several days and never talked! But based on your personality, I guess it's

understandable."

Shawn was speechless.

This was the first time he kept quiet since we met.

I was used to his silence, so I continued, "I promised Colin to spare K."

Shawn generously said, "Spare him then."

"Colin told me it would have been someone else if it wasn't K. At least K let you go, so he can be forgiven."

"Yes. Mr. Briar explained the situation to me."

I asked him worriedly, "Who wants to harm you?"

Perhaps Shawn didn't want me to know too much about the dark side, so he explained briefly, "I have countless

enemies. I have encountered similar situations before. Ray, don't worry too much. Mr. Briar has destroyed that

organization, so you don't need to worry too much."

He said it nonchalantly.

But we almost got killed from our experience a few days ago!

Especially him!

And his eyes were still in pain.

It suddenly dawned on me that Shawn would be in many more dangerous situations in the future. They could be

more dangerous than what he had encountered this time, and he would face most of them alone without me

knowing!

When I thought of this, my heart ached even more.

But there was no perfect solution.

Because this was what Shawn had to go through in this world because of his position. Besides, he cannot give up his

current status. Otherwise, he will end up like the former Ezekiel, who was betrayed by others. Major forces would

also hunt him down like two years ago.

Therefore, he must hold onto his position!

Holding onto this position was the only way to protect the family.

It was the only way to protect me.

It was inevitable for him to be in dangerous situations if he wanted to keep this position.

It was like a vicious cycle!

Although Shawn was powerful and influential, he never had a comfortable life.

He was destined to be constantly on the run and in dangerous situations.

Thinking about this, I felt sorry for him.

I remembered my life before I met him, which was relaxed and extravagant. The worst thing that could happen to

me in a day was being ignored by some man named Nicholas and being provoked by mistresses!

These matters seemed trivial now.

Nothing would matter anymore when facing a life-and-death incident!

I suddenly understood why he had been spoiling me every time. It was because he was a man who was constantly

in danger and experienced too many sharp vicissitudes. He was exceptionally mature. Such a mature man like him

would know how to cherish what was precious. He wouldn't throw tantrums, be suspicious, or misunderstand me

and others around him. Shawn even trusted his assistant, Waylen, to do whatever he wanted!

And Waylen used to work for Ezekiel.

Not to mention Ezekiel was the God of the Past!

A memory of the words Shawn said to me when we just got together came into my mind. "Our life is too short, and

the life we will spend together is even shorter. You did not appear in my past thirty years of life. Ray, you must

remember that misunderstandings, sufferings, lies and other negative emotions will only distance us."

He also said, "No matter whether I was in a good or bad mood in the future, I will not push you away from me,

unless… Many things are inevitable in the world, but they are not obstacles for me as I have the ability and power

to solve them. However, your feelings are beyond my control, and I cannot read them…"

At that time, he was particularly wise.

He clearly knew the doubts I had about us in my heart, so during that time, he often taught me how to love

someone.

Even though I thought I knew how to love someone.

But my kind of love was different from Shawn's. To me, loving someone meant doing everything possible to treat

the other person well, even if it meant compromising or sacrificing myself!

But my kind of love was different from Shawn's. To me, loving someone meant doing everything possible to treat

the other person well, even if it meant compromising or sacrificing myself!

However, in the end, I was the only one who felt touched by my actions!

My kind of love was cheap!

It was an inequality in love!

To Shawn, love meant cherishing someone but being self-respectful at the same time. It was a fair and mutual

relationship. He would only love relentlessly once in this lifetime. Most importantly, it was trust!

We had been together for two years, and his view on love had deeply and subtly influenced me. I had learned to act

coquettish and to be entirely vulnerable in front of a man. I wouldn't let myself suffer like I used to!

Although I was usually weak and needed Shawn's protection all the time, I could also be strong when he needed me

to be. I was more feminine when he was around because I enjoyed his pampering!

Looking back on everything I had thought about, I secretly sighed in admiration because Shawn was probably the

wisest person in the world. This was precisely why he could make the best decision in every situation.

At the same time, I could also understand his values clearly through communication.

His values were extremely righteous.

The things he said sometimes were the obvious truth, but when he said it, it seemed as though he was extremely

insightful about the issue.

It was as if he could always understand the human mind and solve their problems.

Shawn's gentle voice interrupted my thoughts. "What are you thinking about?"

I came back to my senses and smiled. "Thinking of you."

He smiled gently and said, "You're always lost in thoughts."

I hugged him and replied, "I've been thinking about the things between us. I feel so lucky to be able to meet you."

Shawn patted my head with his palm, retrieved his hand, and rubbed my cheeks as if he was addicted to them.

Suddenly, I opened my mouth to bite and suck his finger. At this moment, Kevin pushed open the door and saw us.

He quickly covered his eyes with both hands and left a gap, saying, "I didn't see anything! I just came to tell you that

I'm going back to Finland. I won't be in the way!"

Shawn's cold voice scolded, "Get out."