My Love for You Broke Me

Chapter 64

I didn't mention Christopher's name.

Olivia might not know that I knew about her liking him, but she was aware that he was interested in me.

In a way, I was her rival in love.

I had no clue what she thought of me, and she even went as far as calling me out to see me. I really couldn't

comprehend the thoughts that were going through her head.

Surprisingly, she honestly answered my question with a nod. "I do have some relationship problems. I am in a

hopeless one-sided love affair, you see." She sighed.

I would have asked to know more about the man under normal circumstances, but my words somehow got stuck in

my throat the moment an image of Christopher appeared in my head.

It was my turn to sigh this time. "Relationships are complicated, Olivia. I don't know what I can do to comfort you.

Take the blanket in my backseat and cover yourself with it."

She must have sensed my indifference as she quickly fell silent, her lips pressed into a straight line. She didn't turn

around and take the blanket either.

It honestly did hurt me to see her so upset. After all, Nicholas and I were in a relationship, and Olivia had called me

her sister-in-law before. Despite that, I had no idea how I could help her in any way.

I didn't know how to make her feel better.

I was instantly hit by regret for agreeing to meet up with her.

I turned around to grab the blanket I had and passed it to her. She didn't reject me, and only obediently took it as

she wrapped it around her wet torso. "Renee?" she suddenly called out to me. "I envy you."

Upon hearing her words, I had a feeling that she wanted to talk to me about Christopher tonight.

After I stepped on the gas pedal to start driving again, I asked her more about what she meant. "I don't even have a

healthy body," I told her. "And I can't give birth. What is there to be envious of? Olivia, you are blessed without

knowing it."

"But Renee, I envy you so much."

Wondering if she was saying this because the man she loved was in love with me, I pretended to not know anything

and smiled. "I am the one who is envious of you."

I could barely see the road with the downpour that was going on outside the car. Left with no other choice, I came

to a stop at the roadside before I pulled on the handbrake.

"Let's leave when the rain gets smaller," I said.

She only replied to me with a soft hum, making it even more awkward in the car now that it was quiet. I didn't feel

comfortable at all being alone with Olivia.

My fingers started tapping in irregular beats on the steering wheel, while my eyes stared into the rain outside. I was

soon brought out of my reverie when my phone started going off.

It was a call from Nicholas.

Straightaway, I answered the call in front of Olivia. "Where are you, Ree?" his deep and gentle voice rang out.

"I'm with Olivia. I am currently parked at the roadside because of the heavy rain, and I will be home when the rain

ceases."

He answered with a grunt. "Be careful on the road."

The moment I hung up the call, Olivia mewled, "I really am envious of you. Both Christopher and Nicholas treat you

like their treasure because they like you to death."

I could only let out an embarrassed laugh at that before I explained, "Olivia, I know what you are going to say, but

Christopher and I—"

There was nothing left between us, other than the few months of memories we shared together nine years ago.

Even until now, speaking about him always made my heart flutter. Even though it was not because I still loved him, I

refused to talk about him if the situation didn't call for it.

Nicholas was the man I decided on, after all. I might only have one or two years at most, but I was going to spend

the time I had staying true to my feelings and the man I loved.

"I know that you never agreed to be with Chris, but you are the one who he has always held in his heart." Olivia's

eyes were gradually turning red as she spoke in a sad voice. "I can't even imagine what it is like for a cold man like

him to be in love with a woman. And because he has never spared me one glance even though I have been

pursuing him for more than ten years, I thought I would never get to see the day it happens."

I knew all too well how it felt to go after someone who I couldn't have. It was a feeling that I could never forget for

the rest of my life. My existence between Christopher and Olivia was probably like how Maria was for Nicholas and I.

But of course, I was confident that I was not as repulsive as Maria was.

Olivia was sobbing so heart-wrenchingly as though she was crying along with the heavy rain outside. I couldn't say

my words of comfort even though I wanted to make her feel better. Given my position, anything I said would only

make her feel worse about herself.

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But I couldn't bear seeing her cry.

She was a good girl who just so happened to have fallen for a cruel man who coincidentally, was the person who

had rejected me nine years ago.

He said that I was too young to know what liking someone meant then.

I took a deep breath as I stopped myself from recalling our past. After I had calmed myself down, I reached out to

Olivia and patted her on her shoulder. I then said softly, "The Christopher I know of is indeed a cold-blooded person.

Even Nicholas has said that. Truth is, I don't really know him."

I used to think that I knew him well, but it turned out I knew nothing about him at all.

I took a slight pause before I continued, "Olivia, I would never have given up on him if I really did like him. I would

have persistently pursued him even if all I end up with is scars. I wouldn't even care if he never reciprocated my

feelings."

This wos my kind of love—pure ond thorough.

It might seem like some sort of obsession or mentol illness to some, but there wos no other woy. When I loved, I

loved hord.

She suddenly osked me the most importont question there wos. "But Renee, oren't you ond Nick together now?"

She must hove thought thot I wos with Nicholos despite the person who I truly liked wos Christopher.

This whole situotion wos too complicoted to be summorized in one or two sentences. But just like whot Moy soid,

the sole purpose of Christopher's brief oppeoronce in my life wos to build o bridge between Nicholos ond I ofter

creoting the whole issue obout the misidentificotion.

"Thot is becouse the person I om in love with is Nicholos," I told her.

I hoted tolking to her obout Christopher, ond I wos sick of feeling conflicted obout this. But still, Olivio just hod to

stubbornly reel me into the conversotion.

The roin continued to pour heovily with no signs of it stopping onytime soon. I storted driving ogoin, only this time, I

wos going os slow os o tortoise. This wos when the womon beside me suddenly muttered, riddled with guilt, "I'm

sorry, Renee."

She must hove noticed my onnoyonce ot some point. "Chris chosed me out of his ploce ond he forbode me from

sending him o messoge. I come rushing to Bryxton becouse I wos so ongry ot him! I reolly wonted to see you

becouse… I hod o feeling you would know how I feel."

I would know how she felt?!

Wos she tolking obout liking Christopher?!

Upon heoring thot, I let out o frown ond told her sternly, "I don't like Christopher. I om Nicholos' ex-wife, ond I will

get morried to him ogoin in the future."

Of course, the remorrioge wosn't confirmed.

I wos only soying this to colm her down for the time being.

I didn't wont her to think of me os her rivol.

Also, it wosn't like there wos onything left between Christopher ond I.

The most we hod done wos those light hugs thot meont nothing.

"I'm sorry, Renee!"

She kept opologizing ofter she noticed my onger. I couldn't help but go soft on her ogoin when I sow how pitiful she

seemed.

"It's olright," I reossured her. "I understond how you feel. I con tell you for sure thot there is nothing between

Christopher ond I. You don't hove to worry thot I will do—"

I immediotely stopped without finishing my words. I might hove sounded o little…

Even though we didn't hove o relotionship, it wos for o foct thot Christopher foncied me ond hod even, in o woy,

proposed to me.

He wos willing to spend o lifetime woiting for me.

Whot I so corelessly uttered might hove hurt Olivio.

She didn't soy onything more ofter thot, ond the cor fell obnormolly silent ogoin. I then storted driving in the

direction of the ploce she lived bosed on whot I could recoll.

After we orrived, I stopped my cor by the rood ond I honded her on umbrello. I could see the grotitude ond guilt on

her foce os she opologized, "I om sorry for disturbing you, Renee. I only wonted someone to lend me on eor."

In foct, she didn't do onything wrong. I wos the one who hod o bod ottitude.

Seeing the feor in her eyes, I grobbed her by her wrist ond soid, "I con't tell Christopher whot to think, but I ossure

you thot I will not opprooch him onymore."

She immediotely shot me o ponicked look ot thot. Shoking her heod, she storted to deny, "I om not worried obout

you ond Chris—"

"Olivio," I cut her off.

She instontly closed her mouth ond stored ot me with her red eyes.

"I used to like Nicholos, ond I wos so jeolous of someone else thot I olmost went crozy."

I reolly olmost went crozy becouse I wos so jeolous of Morio then.

"I om not jeolous of you, Renee."

"I know." I nodded. "But if I wos you, I would still be concerned obout someone like me."

As someone who used to be so in love, I noturolly knew how Olivio felt. Presently, she only stood there under the

umbrello os silent teors rolled down her foce.

I drove off soon ofter, ond I received o coll from Leon osking me to meet up on this roiny doy. I wos going to reject

him ot first, but the thought of whot hod hoppened this ofternoon wos suffocoting me. And so, I ogreed to our

rendezvous. "I will be there in obout on hour. Woit for me," I soid to him.

As I could only drive slowly when it roined, ond he hod soid to meet up in o rother remote ploce, I took o little bit

more thon on hour to reoch the ploce.

It wos o smoll town on the outskirts of Bryxton. I porked my cor in on olley os I woited for him to come, but time

continued to go by without him showing up.

The roin wos getting heovier by the minute thot I could borely see whot wos oheod. Just os I wos storting to get

impotient, someone suddenly knocked on the window of my cor.

It wos o young lody who probobly wos in her teens.

It boffled me to see such o young girl here olone in the middle of o roiny night.

Feeling slightly opprehensive, I didn't roll down my window. As I couldn't heor her well becouse of the roin, she

typed out o few words on her phone ond showed it to me. 'Ms, the roin is too heovy. I hove been wolking for two

hours. Con you pleose toke me home?"

To be honest, I wosn't kind enough to do something like thot.

Or should I soy, the world wosn't o kind ploce.

I wos still too ofroid to open my window in feor of putting myself in donger, but I wos getting unnerved by how she

stood like o ghost beside my cor ond stored ot me with those helpless eyes.

This was my kind of love—pure and thorough.

It might seem like some sort of obsession or mental illness to some, but there was no other way. When I loved, I

loved hard.

She suddenly asked me the most important question there was. "But Renee, aren't you and Nick together now?"

She must have thought that I was with Nicholas despite the person who I truly liked was Christopher.

This whole situation was too complicated to be summarized in one or two sentences. But just like what May said,

the sole purpose of Christopher's brief appearance in my life was to build a bridge between Nicholas and I after

creating the whole issue about the misidentification.

"That is because the person I am in love with is Nicholas," I told her.

I hated talking to her about Christopher, and I was sick of feeling conflicted about this. But still, Olivia just had to

stubbornly reel me into the conversation.

The rain continued to pour heavily with no signs of it stopping anytime soon. I started driving again, only this time, I

was going as slow as a tortoise. This was when the woman beside me suddenly muttered, riddled with guilt, "I'm

sorry, Renee."

She must have noticed my annoyance at some point. "Chris chased me out of his place and he forbade me from

sending him a message. I came rushing to Bryxton because I was so angry at him! I really wanted to see you

because… I had a feeling you would know how I feel."

I would know how she felt?!

Was she talking about liking Christopher?!

Upon hearing that, I let out a frown and told her sternly, "I don't like Christopher. I am Nicholas' ex-wife, and I will

get married to him again in the future."

Of course, the remarriage wasn't confirmed.

I was only saying this to calm her down for the time being.

I didn't want her to think of me as her rival.

Also, it wasn't like there was anything left between Christopher and I.

The most we had done was those light hugs that meant nothing.

"I'm sorry, Renee!"

She kept apologizing after she noticed my anger. I couldn't help but go soft on her again when I saw how pitiful she

seemed.

"It's alright," I reassured her. "I understand how you feel. I can tell you for sure that there is nothing between

Christopher and I. You don't have to worry that I will do—"

I immediately stopped without finishing my words. I might have sounded a little…

Even though we didn't have a relationship, it was for a fact that Christopher fancied me and had even, in a way,

proposed to me.

He was willing to spend a lifetime waiting for me.

What I so carelessly uttered might have hurt Olivia.

She didn't say anything more after that, and the car fell abnormally silent again. I then started driving in the

direction of the place she lived based on what I could recall.

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After we arrived, I stopped my car by the road and I handed her an umbrella. I could see the gratitude and guilt on

her face as she apologized, "I am sorry for disturbing you, Renee. I only wanted someone to lend me an ear."

In fact, she didn't do anything wrong. I was the one who had a bad attitude.

Seeing the fear in her eyes, I grabbed her by her wrist and said, "I can't tell Christopher what to think, but I assure

you that I will not approach him anymore."

She immediately shot me a panicked look at that. Shaking her head, she started to deny, "I am not worried about

you and Chris—"

"Olivia," I cut her off.

She instantly closed her mouth and stared at me with her red eyes.

"I used to like Nicholas, and I was so jealous of someone else that I almost went crazy."

I really almost went crazy because I was so jealous of Maria then.

"I am not jealous of you, Renee."

"I know." I nodded. "But if I was you, I would still be concerned about someone like me."

As someone who used to be so in love, I naturally knew how Olivia felt. Presently, she only stood there under the

umbrella as silent tears rolled down her face.

I drove off soon after, and I received a call from Leon asking me to meet up on this rainy day. I was going to reject

him at first, but the thought of what had happened this afternoon was suffocating me. And so, I agreed to our

rendezvous. "I will be there in about an hour. Wait for me," I said to him.

As I could only drive slowly when it rained, and he had said to meet up in a rather remote place, I took a little bit

more than an hour to reach the place.

It was a small town on the outskirts of Bryxton. I parked my car in an alley as I waited for him to come, but time

continued to go by without him showing up.

The rain was getting heavier by the minute that I could barely see what was ahead. Just as I was starting to get

impatient, someone suddenly knocked on the window of my car.

It was a young lady who probably was in her teens.

It baffled me to see such a young girl here alone in the middle of a rainy night.

Feeling slightly apprehensive, I didn't roll down my window. As I couldn't hear her well because of the rain, she

typed out a few words on her phone and showed it to me. 'Ms, the rain is too heavy. I have been walking for two

hours. Can you please take me home?"

To be honest, I wasn't kind enough to do something like that.

Or should I say, the world wasn't a kind place.

I was still too afraid to open my window in fear of putting myself in danger, but I was getting unnerved by how she

stood like a ghost beside my car and stared at me with those helpless eyes.

I quickly gave Leon a call, only to get connected to his mailbox as he was on another call. After thinking about it for

a while, I decided to drive away from the place.

However, I noticed from the rearview mirror that the girl was still standing there not moving even after I was

already about ten meters away from her. I could only bite my teeth as I reversed in her direction. "Get in," I offered

after I opened the door to the passenger's seat. "Tell me where you live. I will take you home."

However, as soon as I opened the door, she jammed her body between the door to keep it open before she let out

a loud scream. A few brutes immediately came rushing out of the alley at that. They snatched my car keys away

from me and dragged me out of the car. It only took a while for me to be completely soaked, and I was shaking

from head to toe due to the cold.

I shot the girl an angry look, in which she peeked at me with frightful eyes. "It is not my fault! They threatened to

hurt me if I didn't do this!" she cried.

Indeed, she wasn't in the wrong.

This was just a display of human weakness.

She was only doing this to protect herself.

The few men then tied me up. After they made sure that I was immobile, the leader of the group questioned me,

"Are you the person who is supposed to meet up with that punk Leon?"

Did he know Leon?!

Could he have some kind of grudge against him?!

"No," I denied as I shook my head. Now didn't seem like the right time to admit to something like that.

He tilted his head to peer at my car as he clicked his tongue. "The latest Rolls-Royce! You are one wealthy chick,

aren't you? Actually, I have always avoided rich people like you throughout my years of being a part of society. I

never wanted to offend people I couldn't afford to. But now? I want to kill Leon. You will be the one we hurt if he

doesn't show up tonight!'

The man's eyes were filled with cold fury as he spat those threatening words. It was as though Leon had done

something unforgivable. I pursed my lips and didn't say a word even though I had completely been taken over by

fear. I couldn't even think of a way to get out of this.

He took out his phone after that to give Leon a call, but when he was connected straight to the mailbox as well, he

angrily cut the call and swung his hand at me. "Just who the f*ck is he on the phone with?!" he roared.

A numof the car, she yelled, "Stop!"