To Love You Again

Chapter 13 - Mysterious Boy (III)

When the boy laughed, Xiong Zhi had a chance to observe the boy.

He looked like he was mixed but the foreign blood standout more.

His silver long fine white hair reached at the nape of his neck, some were long enough to cover his eyes and forehead. His? thin brow was also silver that aligned perfectly. He had high bridge nose, had pale full lips that if it was red it would noticeable. He had smooth perfect jaw. His skin was pale and translucent. Even he was suffering by holding the railings in one hand it did not lessen his beauty.

But what captured? Xiong Zhi's attention the most was his eyes. It was also silver with a little tinge of gray or blue. She was not sure. But that beautiful eyes seemed to tell a very sad story. It was dull, empty, and no brilliance. If it had some sparkle in it, this boy would surely look like a deity.

With the sun shining at him, he looked like a fallen Angel.

He was truly beautiful.

But this beautiful boy want to throw his life.

Xiong Zhi knew that if he was saved today there was no guarantee that he would do it in the future.

It must be uprooted so that this thing would never happen again.

"Why don't you let go? If you die today your would not need to face those suffering anymore." Xiong Zhi taunted.

Even she said those words her intentions was to made this boy realized that death was not a solution. He must let go of his suppressed emotions. He, a beautiful child, wanted to throw his life away. It would be a pity.

She clearly saw earlier his terrified face when he was about to fall. She saw how he wanted to hold the railing desperately. It clearly showed that he did not want to die. He wanted to hold on.

But Xiong Zhi for the first time miscalculated. She did not know that her words that should wake him up would be adding to the reasons why he should die instead.

When he heard those words he stilled.

'She's right.

'So what if I wanted to live?

'I will die anyway.

'I will suffer more.'

How could he survived against their scheme? How can he win against his father's power and authority? No one would believe he killed his mother. He tried it before but they just locked him in a mental hospital. How could he win against his brother's scheme? His brother was trusted and loved by many, unlike him. If he tell the word what they had done, they would believe them rather than him.

He clenched his teeth. No matter what he do. They would not believe him even he had many evidence.

He let go of the hold in one of his hands and reached a paper in his pocket.

It was his suicide letter. He had also written his father's and brother's crime. Also the evidence and where they would find them. He wanted to expose their crimes with his death.

If he died, the media and police would discover his letter in his body. They would investigate it. Hopefully, their crimes would not escaped in public's eyes.

With this thought in his mind, he was a little bit relieved. At least, he could do something with his death.

His other hand gripped tightly at the paper. He would not let go of this paper until it was in good hands.

He looked up at the girl whom he could not see clearly.

He did not notice that he was crying.

Xiong Zhi saw the beautiful boy' silent tears. The look in his eyes was telling her that he was reluctant, helpless, dejected and had no will to live.

She suddenly had a bad bad premonition.

'Don't tell me...'

The boy closed his eyes while tears was pouring out silently.

He felt the sun shine on him, the strong cool wind seemed to whisper to him. He at least wanted to feel the nature before he die.

Then he let go of his hold on the railings.

Xiong Zhi eyes widened. She frantically reached out her hands.

The strong cool wind blow off her cap exposing her long black hair. It danced wildly with the wind.

Xiong Zhi's half body was leaning out in the railings. She sighed in relief when she managed to hold his hand.

But then it quickly dissipated because she was very angry at this idiot!

"You..you fool! What are you thinking! You really want to throw your life?!"

Xiong Zhi was very mad and scared at the same time. If she did not managed to hold his hand she might be looking at his dismantled corpse right now. Thinking this she broke out in cold sweat.

The boy was waiting for the pain after the impact but he suddenly felt a warm soft hand hold his thin pale hands.

When he heard her words he looked up. He was startled at the scene in front of him.

Without the cap, the girl's face was exposed to him.

She had a breathtaking beauty. Her shiny long black hair was carried by the wind, her brows was furrowed and she seemed pissed. Her black orbs was looking at him directly. It was full of life , shining brilliantly unlike his who were empty and dull.

Then he looked at their hands. Hers was holding tightly his.

He looked at the girl again with a confused expression.

"Why save me? Didn't you say it was better for me to die? Let go..."

The girl looked pissed more. She opened her cherry full lips.

"Idiot! If you want to die, then die but not in front of me! How can I live for the rest of my life experiencing such a trauma?! Do you want to ruin this woman's life too?!" Xiong said loudly and coldly.

She could not believe there was a foolish person more foolish than him.

She thought he got scared earlier and wanted to live. She thought he changed his mind.He did. But changed his mind again! He was worse than a girl suffering from a period!

The boy was startled. That was her reason? He felt bitter and he did not know why.

"Then closed your eyes and let me go." The boy said stubbornly.

Xiong Zhi felt she wanted to kill a certain person.

Xiong Zhi really treasured her life. Because it was her second chance to make everything right. If it was her first, she would not even blink if someone killed themselves in front of her. Simply, because she did not care. She was empty, had breath with no meaning, like mindless doll.

She kinda felt what this boy felt right now.

He must have felt alone.

With that thought, her angry mind calmed down and tried to persuade this boy. She - who was given a second chance- did not want to witness a boy so young wasted his only life. He had never seen and enjoy this life.

"Don't you have any more reason to live?"

'Or someone you want to live life with.'

Xiong Zhi asked adding her thoughts silently.

The boy looked at her eyes.

Xiong Zhi could not stand the look in his eyes.

Sadness. Extreme sadness.

It tells her one thing.

He was alone. He had nothing nor someone to live his life with. He had no reason to live.

He already gave up his life.

What did he suffer to have those look in his eyes?

Alone.

She could not help but felt a connection in her heart. She felt like she was looking at herself.

She had also no one.

She was alone in her world.

No ambitions, no dreams, nothing. She felt nothing all the time.

Until Linfeng came. He became her light in her dark life. Made her feel. Made her to want something. Made her to dream. Made her a reason to live.

She looked at the boy, the feeling of helplessness and loneliness was not foreign to her. Before she could stop herself she heard herself say,

"I--I don't have a friend. Will you become my first?"

The boy was startled. He could not believe that the girl would asked him to be her friend in this situation.

But the look in the girl's eyes were sincere not a trace of pity he expected. It was like the girl was looking at his heart asking his whole being.

A friend.

He had no friends. But he knew what 'friend' means. He heard some maid before that she had a friend that she can borrow money from.

A person you can run into if you have trouble.

A person who you can share your burdens with.

A person who will help you in tough times.

A person you can celebrate with.

A person who stays close in your heart.

Those thoughts were too beautiful for him.

Xiong Zhi's palm was sweating. She could not hold it anymore. Anytime she could lose her hold. She was already using her two hands.

While the boy was still in daze because of her words, Xiong Zhi used this chance to pull him up with all her strength. It was good that the boy was thin.

The boy did not struggle.

When they finally at the safe ground, Xiong Zhi breathed heavily. Her back was full of sweat. She reprimanded herself to have some exercise.

She looked at the boy, her face was cold. She was about to nag him when she was suddenly enveloped by jade thin arms.

Xiong Zhi was startled.

"Hey...are you alright? That----"

She was cut off when she felt him hugging her tighter.

"That--hurt..." She added . she forgot what she was going to tell earlier. This boy, was killing her! She could not breath!

She pushed him with all her strength but her arms were weak because of holding him earlier.

When the boy was satisfied by the hug he looked at Xiong Zhi.

"You saved me today, and you made me your friend. You have to be responsible." He said seriously.

Xiong Zhi looked at him strangely.

What 'responsible' ?

Xiong Zhi seemed to forgot that she just asked him to become his friend. She did not know because of today's events her life would be tied to this boy or to say accurately this boy tied his life to Xiong Zhi.

"What is your na--" the boy started but was cut off by the loud sound of door opening.

Several men in black suits entered and approached them. Xiong Zhi recognized some of them,? they were the guards who left earlier.

'Shooootttt. I totaly forgot about them. Trouble....'

The boy also saw them. His face darkened and he took a step away from Xiong Zhi. Xiong Zhi noticed it and felt something was fishy.

"Young master, were looking for you. You made us worried.Your session has already started. The Doctors are all waiting for you." One of the men suited in black came forward and hold the boy's arm.

This man was different from the other men. In his suit there was a golden pin in circular shaped. There was a letter "L" in the middle.

When he said those words a tinge of mockery could be traced. There was no politeness in his words and actions. He boldly hold the boy's arm like he was capturing a criminal.

"Let me guide you to your room--" then he stopped talking to the boy when he saw Xiong Zhi.

It was a good thing that Xiong Zhi had quick reaction and reflexive. She already picked up her cap when they were walking towards them and then put them on. She hugged the jacket she was wearing tightly. She kept a cold face even though they could not see it clearly.

But her heart was ready to jump out of her ribcage . She was nervous.

"And this is?" The man looked at Xiong Zhi then to the boy before looking at Xiong Zhi again.

"I don't know . why don't you ask her. She is already here when I came to have fresh air" the boy said without ripple of any emotion.

The man seemed to not believe it. He was about to asked Xiong Zhi when the boy started walking towards the door. He did not even look back.

Of course Xiong Zhi understand what was happening. When the man still did not move and had no intention to let go of her. She took her phone and? pretended she was talking to someone.

"Father, I'm sorry I did not answer your call earlier. There was no signal at the hospital-- Yeah-- no, I'm still here. At the rooftop. You're downstairs?,okay--" Xiong Zhi nodded at the man and walked towards the exit. She was still on the phone pretending to listen on the other side .

"How's mom? I bought some food today. Did you bring Jackie? ---who are with you?"

Xiong Zhi voice was fainting as she walked downstairs.

The man that she just escaped from had a dark expression. He did not managed to get her name. He was still suspicious of her. What if she was in media? Or someone that brat hired.

He picked up his phone and dialed a number.

"Hello?" A woman voice was heard.

"Investigate and get the information about the girl who was wearing a cap, black jacket and running shoes. She was heading downstairs.? Now."

He ended the call. It seemed like he had something to report.